Thank you all for listening to me, and it's great to be able to vent without being ostracized by family and told to keep quiet then I will forget it. I have prayed to the Lord to help me to forget this, but he won't allow my mind to put it away as I should. Even my christian grandmother closed her eyes to what was happening, but before she died she told me that she suspected this, but didn't think that the courts would believe a young child. We have been called low-down lyers at such a young age with no one to protect us from this demon.
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I want to talk to my brother about our past, but it is hard for both of us. I feel dirty, below men, and dislike them all except for a half brother from this pedefile that was also abuse by his father. The only way that I will ever put this behind me will be to try to forget.but I can't. I have hurt so bad and never have been able to have a decent relationship with a man. When I finally told my mother at 14 she said that I was a lyer and a home wrecker and through me out of her house. I am 60 years old now, have had counseling for this once and was told that "that's just the way men are." I cannot put it behind me after all these years because there was no closure, and accusing before this PED died. This man opened my grandfathers bedroom door and tried to make me come back saying "it will only take a short time". My mother and grandmother were downstairs along with two aunts that also had been drinking and seemed to have no idea what was going on upstairs. If my grandpa would have awaken he would have killed this man. I run into my grandfathers bedroom where I had a bed and slept in the same room as my grandparents. to let him rape me.he was crazy about raping women. One night I had fallen asleep in my mother's bed -she and her husband had been out drinking - and when they arrived home my step-father come upstairs to go to bed, and found me asleep in his bed. My mother and step-father lived in my grandparents home at the beginning of the abuse. The first time it happened I was 4 yrs old. He would come into the bathroom when I was taking a bath, and sit on the toilet and scare me to death.
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There were never any locks on bathroom, bedrooms so there was no privacy for me growing up. My mother set idly by acting like nothing was happening. My name is Judith, and I was molested by a step-father from the age of 4-14. My prayers go out to all the heart broken souls out there! Debra I still cry almost everyday about what my Dad did to me, But what is even sadder is that knowing my mother doesn`t care or love me. I have never known my own mother`s love! Thank god I now have a wonderful husband. I ran away from home, got married but only to make things worse. I was molested at 12 years old until I was 15. Your story was very touching! I am 46 yrs and 3 months old now. There are parents that do care and I just want every one out there that has had anything happen to you to know that I love you and just know when you are upset think of me and how I want to be you're real friend and even if you are mental or anything I still love you thanks for all you're help if you ever want to mention me to people go ahead so they will know ok love you bye ~ Hi im crying my eyes out right now and thats very sad. I am but fifteen and I am happy with the one I love.
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There would never been a good life in me. I sit here thinking of how much I wanted to die. My life was not great but I am getting better. One month later we are in each other's arms We start to talk and know each other more. I see a guy that's looking deep in my eyes. My mom and step dad are not fighting as much. My best friend waking up at the cry of me. I stay there all night until he went away. I lay there hoping that it will be over soon I love her so much she is my best friend. Goodbye to my best friend that he can take away. Why did he drink and beat her to the limit?